Christmas Plans

Trying to figure out what to do about Christmas, 'cause I REALLY don't wanna go back home. But, I don't like staying down here, since the guy I went to banquet with is back with his girlfriend, one of my friends, but lately, she's been acting so possessive! I mean, John's just trying to be my friend, and give me a listening ear, since he's the only person I've found so far who I truly believe understands where I'm coming from. But, she seems to think that I'm trying to take him away from her. I mean, back when I asked him to go with me to banquet, after she broke up with him, she thought that we had been dating behind her back or something, and that I did that purposefully to hurt her. Excuse me? Since when was I the one who's heartless? But, now, I feel like a third wheel among most of my friends, considering I'm one of the few singles. It's not fair! But, then again, when is life ever fair?

Trying my darnest to keep from crying....It's just so hard to see that other people have happy families that are glad to see them home, while I have my family going in fourteen thousand different directions at once....we're just not much of a family now, and I don't know what to do exactly.

One thing that I've found, looking back on the past posts, is that this is one way for me to unwind after the long day. It's sorta like an online journal, without any purient details. I just like the fact that I have a place I can unload all my grievances and such on, and not hear any complaints!