Rich Loves Me..Now What?

Well, not really thrilled as to how finals went..failed two classes, so Dad's gonna have a fit when he finds out...but, I had a very nice weekend...spent a lot of this past week with Rich, which was real nice...we met w/another couple on Friday. It was a lot of fun; we have a lot of stuff in common, besides the fact that we're swingers...yes, I am now a swinger...it's interesting.

But, I'm also confused...Rich said he's in love with me, and I'm not sure how to react to it...I'm shellshocked, to be totally honest...I mean, why would anyone *want* to be in love with me? I just never had that happen to me. Besides which, only 2 more weeks until my birthday, though I probably won't see Rich for about 3. :( Not fair. Ah well. That's life, I guess...But, I'm confused. He wants us to eventually move in together, and I wouldn't be comfortable with that unless we're married...I just wish he could understand things from my POV. I mean, if I did end up moving in with him, I'd basically be cutting off all contact with my family, since I already know from other experiences in the family that they would, since they wouldn't approve of what I'd be doing...and, the thing is, I'm not ready to do that...I mean, for all my grumbling, I love my daddy so much. But, if I was forced to chose between my father and Rich, if push came to shove, though it would hurt like hell, I'd chose Rich over my father.

Finals Suck!

ooh, boy, what a busy last few days! I've had finals straight thru from Monday 'til tomorrow...6 in all. *groan* at least I'll be done by 2:30, and be able to spend a good part of that day, and all of Friday, with Rich, my bf. He's so sweet at times, and yet, so damn sexy too. I'm in the middle of making a site for the two of us, and I'm trying to get a blog for it, too. I just don't know how I'm gonna be able to handle three whole weeks w/o seein' him. Ah, well, the tests love is put through!

Emode Quizzes

Emode.com - What's Your Celebrity Look? - Romantic Look
With the eyes of a Botticelli and the smile of a DaVinci, you're the latest embodiment of the Romantic Look. It's your fascinating combo of dreamy innocence and smoldering desire that always keeps 'em guessing. Your tender, inner nature comes out in the soft colors and flowing fabrics of your clothes. But just because you can pull off the pastel eye shadows, pouty glossed lips, and the wide-eyed look of a kitten, everyone knows that you're no angel. Once you slip into something sexy for the evening and dab a little fragrance behind the ear, you're capable of just about anything. Mysterious as a cat, you share the same romantic allure as Nicole Kidman, Penelope Cruz, and Andie MacDowell. And just like them, your sincere, inner beauty always manages to shine just as brightly as your striking appearance.

That's soo true. I love dressing up for events and stuff, and love to play around with flowing fabrics. It's cool sometimes, and it's nice that my bf likes to dress up for events, too, so that I don't feel like he's doing it out of obligation to/for me.


Emode.com: Your Results A brilliant bolt of lightning descends! SHAZAAM! The oracle has spoken!
The smoke clears to reveal that inside you is a divine being,
HESTIA, the Goddess of Family and Peace.
She's a deity who embraces all the aspects of womanhood. As a woman in her image, you exude femininity and sensuality.
You view men as the perfect counterpart to your womanly ways. But you probably don't appreciate casual encounters. Rather, you prefer purity and tradition. Because of these predilections, you tend to attract men who understand your nature and possess maturity and seriousness beyond their years. When you finally arrive at the bedroom and your divine qualities are released, you reveal such sensuality that the experience is unforgettable. In other words, with the right guy, you really know how to get wild in the sack. In fact, when the mood strikes, you can easily drive your man crazy. But out of respect for your inner nature, you require love and devotion from your partners. You are an attentive and giving lover who knows how to make your man feel sexy, appreciated, and fulfilled. When you show your stuff, it's like a light shines down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!

I love feeling like a test seems to really strike true with what I've found. It's really nice.


Emode.com: Your Marriage Results

CONGRATULATIONS, and make sure to put Emode on the guest list! Start making your plans now. We have calculated your responses according to our scientific formula and harmonized the results to the Venutian lunar calendar. If you are not already attached, keep in mind that all men who cross your path may be grooms in disguise.

YOU WILL BE MARRIED BY: Saturday, June 19, 2004
A number of different factors influenced your result. Check out the details below.

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Social Factors

On the social front, you are pretty serious marriage material. As you read this, forces beyond your control are aligning to put you on the altar with Mr. Right. It's you, girl. Your number is up, and someone out there is just dying to pop you the question. There's no need to book a flight to Vegas, but you might want to start thinking about your wedding gown.
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Emotional Factors

Emotionally, you seem to be fairly ready for marriage. You show strong signs of being a contender, and you've got what it takes to make the plunge. Maybe any hesitation is just a small case of the "jitters." In any case, for Mr. Right, it's practically a done deal. He's just waiting for the right moment, so sit back and let it happen.
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Sexual Factors

You have very few sexually motivated reasons for avoiding marriage. Of course, the carefree single life can pose a strong attraction, but you probably prefer the thought of devoting yourself to one person. It's true that there are a lot of unsolved mysteries out there, but once you've found the right person, it's time to close shop. Congratulations on having the strength and security to know what's right for you.

I've Got a New Boyfriend

Ooh, boy, what an amazing last week. Me and Rich are now boyfriend and girlfriend, and I'm so thankful. I don't know what I did to deserve a guy like this. He's really nice and sweet, caring and considerate...Thank you, Lord, for sending me such an amazing guy. Yes, we have our differences of opinion on things, but so do any good relationship from time to time. Hey, I mean, if a couple *never* seems to argue about things, there's something slightly wrong, because noone is perfectly like another. Okay, maybe you two might not have all out battles, but rather just disagreements about things; if you don't even have that, ask youself why. But, I'm happy. My birthday's at the end of the month. The funny thing is that it's the EXACT day/year of Eliza Dushku. How weird is that? But, anyhoo, that's always meant more prezzies for me. :) But, I wish he would just accept the fact that yes, next year, I will, Lord willing, have my Biblical Studies degree. Yes, it may not be able to help me out financially speaking, but it's a subject that I've always had an interest in, so, I'm going to get the damn degree. I'll just get my certification in web design after I graduate.