Frustration Mounts

Okay, this damn thing does not seem to be doing what I want and need it to do. I am trying to find a free based php related weblog program that I can plug into my main page without it spitting back a ton of errors and cannot find pages or cannot display pages. This is really getting on my last nerve and I'm really frustrated, and I don't know what to do, and I could really use some help here. I wish I knew more about php and how it works and how to make it work properly, so that when I post here, it'll show up when you go to www.nevernormal.com...right now, I have it in it's own lil subdirectory because for some reason, either the fucking server's messed up or there's something seriously wrong with me as a programmer, and I feel like bursting into tears about the fact that my life sucks and my boyfriend won't help with this because he thinks I spend way too much time on the computer anyways, and I need to stop rambling now. *sigh* I'll just get some sleep and try again tomorrow, I guess.